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Originally posted by Eagle Heart:
My own fervant prayer is that I not die before I've truly learned to live abundantly and to love unconditionally and compassionately all of God's other children.
When I was diagnosed with cancer in my thirties and was forced to face my own mortality, I fell in love with life, both the bad and the good and I resolved to live every day as an adventure.

There have certainly been times when I merely plodded along, but I did it because in the best of me I always knew there was an adventure out there waiting. I love taking on new things and have been given so many opportunities. I want to take advantage of each one knowing they are gifts of God and that even the failures are adventures that "will work together with all things for the good of those who love the Lord and keep his commands."

Because eternity never begins and never ends, I believe I am living in a small part of it now. When I keep the commands of Jesus, in my spirit I am already in heaven and when I don't in my spirit, I am already in hell. After death, maybe those spiritual experiences will become literal. I don't really think about it much.

Sometimes I get afraid and want to just go home. At those times I wonder if I have come so far that I can never go back, but in prayer I realize that going home is different than going back and I don't really want to go back.

I really feel that I can die unafraid, knowing I have truly lived.

Well, most of the time anyway.
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[ July 05, 2005, 03:25 PM: Message edited by: smilinize ]