Mary, jsut off the top of my head...I have two adolpted children from Korea who are now 16 and 18. I also have a birth child who is 15.

Here are my thoughts in a nutshell. I say do what you need to do to learn as much as you can about your birthparents. You dont want to be sorry when they are gone that you didn't learn/get to know them better. I've done lots of reading through the years and have really come to understand how some adopted children need to search. Everyone's different with their needs of feeling connected.

As far as feeling disloyal to your mom...I say be very honest with her. Tell her exactly how you're feeling about the whole ordeal. If your sisters treated her like a queen and would like to trade, sounds like she's cool with the idea or else she could have chosen not to meet them.

As an adoptive parent I appreciate your honesty in your post.

I think having birth and adopted children may also help me understand the longing to meet birth parents.

You're in my thoughts and prayers.