i was just cheeking in to see/heer hpow the apponintment went , hope your feeling better today

celtic

Great advice about planning for difficult times, Jane Carroll.

Here is to hoping the meds are beginning to take effect. Besides seeing the therapist, any news on a new therapist?

No news on the new therapist, except that she doesn't take my insurance. She left two names, so I've called one of those.

Thank you all for checking in on me.

I've just slept this weekend. Not a good choice for me. But I can't get into my hobbies and I didn't want to clean.

I hope those meds kick in quickly. I don't feel like going to work tomorrow. But I'll be better off than if I stay home alone.

I work split shift, so I have four or five hours alone during the day. Usually I clean. Or come on here to see how everyone is doing.

I'm worn out from fighting this. But I know I have to go to work. Just feeling so exhausted.

If ever I come out of this, I'll never, ever stop taking my meds again.

I really need a new therapist who can see me in the middle of the day. Or a support group of some kind. Funny, when I'm feeling good, I never think I'll sink like this again.

I feel so silly, when I think of all of the ladies on this board who are facing so many challenges.

And I am feeling so very alone. Anyone know this feeling? Wonder if it's part of the depression challenge.

I know all of you are here. My husband is in the next room and no one I know is dying. Just moving away.

Anyone know of any good books about this subject? I've read some long, long ago. Think I threw them out.

Love to all,
Emily

Emily, just want to let you know that the last thing you should feel is guilt because of your depressions. You can't help that any more than someone can't help feeling physically sick.
Just try to think this doesn't have to be a permanent state…it will and can get better. God bless you.

Hannelore is right, I agree. What you are feeling is real and it is happening to you. You need caring and supportive people to listen and be there for you. There's nothing wrong with any of that. It helps in your healing. You'd do the same for any of us. I'm sure of it.

Don't make me come out there.

Luv n Hugs
chick

Emily, Yes, you will come out of this. And yes, there have been many times when I have felt horribly alone and lonely - especially when I have been surrounded by people. These feelings are normal.

Depression is nothing to feel guilty about. I completely understand when you say "Funny, when I'm feeling good, I never think I'll sink like this again." This means your meds are working for you.

Please know, really know, that you can come here anytime and speak your real thoughts. You will not be shamed or dismissed. You may meet none of us, some of us or all of us at some time, but regardless, you will be supported here.

My hunch is that by this time next week, you will begin feeling normal again and have the energy to live again. Bless you.

Emily, how are you feeling today?

Emily...
Hope today is a bit better...

Emily, I am wondering how you are today also.
Hope you are feeling better.

chick

Emyjay, I just experienced the same feeling and a horrible lasting illness. I even called my son over to make sure he had as copy of my will etc. Thats how awful I felt, so you are not alone and I for one understand how you feel. I will pray for you and know that my boomer sisters prayers played a huge part in my recovery. I am just now feeling totally well, so hang in there, it does get better and feeling well again is such an invigorating sensation its almost worth being ill. My feet have hardly touched the floor cause I am flying high.
My prayers are with you.