Diane,

Picturing changing the tape is a good visual. Actually, my husband used to be a disc jockey -- still does some shows for a local country club.

He uses CD's now. But long ago, used tapes, then cassettes. That's why I refer to a tape in my mind. Because I watched him change tapes for so many years.

Think I'm also going to write some affirmations on 3x5 cards. If I start to panic, could visualize changing the tape and read the cards.

What I'm understanding from Eagle and from you is that this is going to take time. By last night, I accepted the fact that this is not a bandaid situation.

I ended up sicker (physically) than I thought. Still have white spots on my tonsils and my temp is still up. So my boss told me to take today off too. This is good. Gives me more time to heal in many ways.

Thanks to all who are helping so much. I'm convinced that only people who have been through this really and truly understand.

Eagle, you've just been through a loss. I'm concerned about you. How are you doing? I'm sure that your husband is supporting you. Do you have any close friends who are giving you extra TLC?

I was scanning your book yesterday. I have to say that you are one of the strongest persons that I have ever met. I mean that. You are an inspiration to me and I am sure that many other "struggling" people feel the same.

Love,
Emily