I echo Jane's suggestion to be kind to yourself! It is NOT A SIN or a crime to rest - whether it be your physical body that needs rest from a viral infection, or your spiritual/emotional self that needs rest from the constant onslaught of untangling that mangled thinking - give yourself permission a) to be human, and b) to rest when your body and/or your spirit needs it.

For me, that rest was very much a part of my healing, and I can guarantee you that I would never have made it out if I had not given in to sleeping and resting when my body/spirit needed that "time-out". And for the record, I spent DAYS and WEEKS in bed, doing absolutely nothing except sleeping, crying and praying. I had no choice. The depression and grief were so heavy and overwhelming, I could not stay awake, and I couldn't function outside of that bed. I knew that healing was on its way when I was finally able to start praying for other people and not just for myself - it wasn't that the act of praying for others was healing in itself, it was that my spirit and body were finally rested enough to begin taking those baby steps out of my own painful darkness.

It is what it is, and we are who we are. Depression is a bona fide illness, and the need for extra rest is one of the legitimate symptoms of depression - if you had a broken back, nobody (including you) would question your need to rest. Why should you be any harsher with yourself when it's depression that needs bedrest - that's just as legitimate a need as any other sick body's need.

Dare to treat yourself with true compassion and kindness - and agree with yourself to start loving yourself back to life instead of constantly flinging fault and guilt. Believe me, I've been there, it almost killed me, I know it's a long road out of there but every trip begins with that first step...I can tell you that it's much more difficult to make much movement forward without first making that commitment to love yourself back to life with the patience and compassion that any wounded person deserves.