Thank you all for corresponding with me.

I was doing better, then the bottom dropped out again. I'm working closely with Dr. Spears as he tries to change amounts of meds or maybe will change them all.

As I said before, I feel guilty when I vent to new friends and old.

But, I have some issues I believe all of you or some of you can help me with.

I'm on my way to my old therapist now. He's seeing me(and some other pervious patients) for awhile until we can find therapists.

I went to a therapist a minister recommended. She wasn't bad, but I have strong religious phobias and left feeling pannicky. Like I said she was good, but wants to try some
EMDR therapy (has to do with eye movement) and Dr. Spears says this is not what I need. He also says I don't need to be facing or opening up really threatening or trigger issues now.

Good news is he thinks he found a cognitive therapist right here in Silver Spring! Only thing we need to find our is if she is taking new patients. He's a well-known research DR. in this area and so i hope she'll take me.

I'm also losing all of my friends because of moves to other states. This is causing me so much mental pain. I would like to talk to you all about this issue, if it's okay with everyone.

Need to run.

I still very much need all of the hope from this site that I can get. Feeling very lonely and getting tired of being depressed.

Want to be happy and helping others.

Love,
Emily