Well, I like Patsy Cline and she probably would have loved those lyrics. What a hoot!

I'm still the same way. Having my evaluation today, which does not make me happy as I do not get along at all with my boss. Well, I get along with her - she doesn't get along with me.

Still trying to get a Dr. Really feel like my meds need to be adjusted.

Still don't feel like housework or cooking.

If anyone else has been in a "stuck" situation like I'm in, how did you break out of it? I'm talking to myself, but myself doesn't seem to be listening!!

Hope Anne is doing okay. Bless her heart.

Beautiful weather today. Will take the kids outside. But would rather be inside stariing at a tv program. But, I'm sure some little one will do something to make me laugh. They always do!

Thanks to all who keep writing to me. I need your support. Really.

Emily in Maryland

Working in the yard always helped me. Reading did too but only fun books. I read a book called A Return to Love that helped me a lot. I hope you can get your meds adjusted.

Still here. Couldn't make it to work yesterday, but am going to go this afternoon. I figure if I fall apart, they can haul me away from there as soon as they can haul me away from here!

I am having a terrible time deciding on which therapist to turn to. It's really hard to start all over. I talked to two over the phone, just to feel them out. I do, as some of you know, have spiritual issues (strong ones) and have never been able to resolve them. One of the counselors is, as a minister told me, "faith based." I don't know about this, although I did question her over the phone about whether or not she's dealth with people with this kind of problem. She said she had, but I'm not sure. Just not sure. She's a licenced social worker, who is knowledgeable about meds. It could be very good for me.

The other lady, I haven't spoken with yet.

I'm feeling particularly scared about this decision, because I think I'm so vulnerable right now. Dont 'want to go backward on the faith issue, which I was beginning to go forward on.

Any thoughts? Should I keep searching?

Emily

Emily, you should find a councillor whom you feel very comfortable with. I believe you could reach out and confide in one better if you are completely comfortable. One that is knowledgable about your meds is very important also. Hopefully you will find someone like this. Keep looking, yet don't take too long, stay on your meds, continue coming here and posting. We want to know how you are doing all the time.

Emily, a good counselor, or therapist, should be able to help you through anything and be non-judgmental about where you are coming from when you share.

It may help to share my recent story regarding medication.

I have been taking an anti-depressant for years. I have tried to go off of them, but to really bad results. I believe you said you have chronic depression, which is what I have been diagnosed with.

Well, just 3 weeks ago, when I went to have my prescription renewed, my doctor told me my insurance no longer has the one I have taken for the past 5 years on their formulary. Seems, it has gotten expensive, and they won't cover it anymore. Anyway, the insurance company decided what drug I should take.

It took 3 weeks for the change to finally kick in. I was on the verge of tears, cranking at anything and everything and thought of murder more than once. And I hadn't even stopped taking them, so residuals were still in my body.

It takes time. The meds may be at the wrong dose, the wrong type, but no matter what, it takes time.

I agree with everyone above this post - find something funny, people that are fun and make you laugh, JJ's book, ANYTHING that makes you get those endorphines kicking in. Did you know that you can just start laughing and it is contageous, even for yourself? I tried a laughing meditation once - it helped.

Bless you my dear. You will find your way out of this dark tunnel.

ANNO the insurances companie decides what anti-d you take...Thats bad enough but to come off a substances that one has taken for 5 yrs all at once even to change to another is wild...the come down and related feelings must have been driving you nuts, seems that way the way you have described it.....whish you had said...i would have given you a list of names and a shotgun ....hehehe no i wouldnt but i might have told you some realiee naff jokes....
well hope new meds are ok for you and you are seattling into them ok...

Isn't it amazing how the insurance companies run the medical field here? I was amazed not only that they did this, but, like you, Celtic, at how there was no weaning off of one and on to the other. Bad medical practice, this is for sure.

it is bad and potencialiie harmfull....the power of the insurances comp. over the midical world a new concept to me , i didnt know they had THAT much power.

bad medical practices is about the kindest thing i would say about it...I have a few ruder unkind thing to say too

i once went down dose by 35mg a week it was horrendis...the chemist was shocked...did i have a clue at the time no, thought i was lossing it and it was down to a weekness in my carticter....then po tells me your only ment to go down 35mg per mounth and even at that some people need short hospital stay....I didn't know to aske for a tranquiliser or to slow down the lower of dosage. or even to aske for it to go down slower..i just done what i was told and it was absolute hell...i rember thinking "whats up with you" i was so close to constant bad tempeer and didn't know why....well i glade you out the other end of it now...