Emily, a good counselor, or therapist, should be able to help you through anything and be non-judgmental about where you are coming from when you share.

It may help to share my recent story regarding medication.

I have been taking an anti-depressant for years. I have tried to go off of them, but to really bad results. I believe you said you have chronic depression, which is what I have been diagnosed with.

Well, just 3 weeks ago, when I went to have my prescription renewed, my doctor told me my insurance no longer has the one I have taken for the past 5 years on their formulary. Seems, it has gotten expensive, and they won't cover it anymore. Anyway, the insurance company decided what drug I should take.

It took 3 weeks for the change to finally kick in. I was on the verge of tears, cranking at anything and everything and thought of murder more than once. And I hadn't even stopped taking them, so residuals were still in my body.

It takes time. The meds may be at the wrong dose, the wrong type, but no matter what, it takes time.

I agree with everyone above this post - find something funny, people that are fun and make you laugh, JJ's book, ANYTHING that makes you get those endorphines kicking in. Did you know that you can just start laughing and it is contageous, even for yourself? I tried a laughing meditation once - it helped.

Bless you my dear. You will find your way out of this dark tunnel.