Emily, Yes, you will come out of this. And yes, there have been many times when I have felt horribly alone and lonely - especially when I have been surrounded by people. These feelings are normal.

Depression is nothing to feel guilty about. I completely understand when you say "Funny, when I'm feeling good, I never think I'll sink like this again." This means your meds are working for you.

Please know, really know, that you can come here anytime and speak your real thoughts. You will not be shamed or dismissed. You may meet none of us, some of us or all of us at some time, but regardless, you will be supported here.

My hunch is that by this time next week, you will begin feeling normal again and have the energy to live again. Bless you.