Thank you all, so much. I need your support. I'm having a challenging day and really don't want to go back to work.

But, I don't have a substitute, so I'll have to go on and do my best.

The lady Dr. has yet to return my phone calls (2). I'm going to do what Eagle did and just keep trying, maybe with a little more "heart" in my voice.

My church experience was rougher than I want to write at this time. Has anyone else on this board belonged to a negative church? Was anyone else raised in a very negative, scary church?

Wish I could talk to someone who has successfully replaced a condemning God with a loving, friendly, compassionate God. I'm trying, ladies, I really am. Some days are better than others in this area of my life. I have talked with some very kind ministers, who have told me that they have heard my kind of story before and that I need to "talk back" to the old ideas and replace them with new. This is so hard to do when I'm down -- easier when I'm feeling good.

Eagle - thinking of you and how much you love your brother

Everyone - thank you for accepting me just as I am.

Love to all,
Emily in Maryland