Hi BR, I'm glad to see you are back on this thread, but not so glad to hear all that you have been through. You have 10 TEN siblings? How emotional that must have been to see that they were under your nose all the while. I am well aware that CSA leads to PTSD. You can/will learn to manage the symptoms of PTSD even if there is no cure. Lots of love and light will help! PL