Gimster. No, I do not think you come across as negative. Finding gratitude in life is not always easy. Think of it as forming a habit, tough at first and gets easier all the time.

Don't be so hard on yourself. Be grateful, right now, that you are even open to the idea of living life through celebration and gratitude. Many people would not even consider learning a new way to look at life.

I am grateful that you are here in these forums and that you are reaching out to others.