Thanks for your answer, Eagle, as you knew what I was talking about earlier.

My question to everyone, including Eagle, was had anyone faced not being able to work while fighting such deep depression. Like Eagle, I've been fighting it for over 3 years now and finally had to give up working in March of this year. In April, I spiraled out of control and hit rock-bottom. It was both a physical and mental spiral for me. I was able to draw unemployment for 4 months before it ended but that was a surprise because I'd been told I could draw it till Nov. I know I don't have the attention span to go back to work now, or in the near future, and am not sure what to do. Hubby does work a decent job but we also bought a house this summer, on the pretense I'd have unemployment till this fall.

Has anyone else faced this issue, and if so, what did you do? I'm presently applying for CPP disability and am picking up the paperwork for this on Thurs. Eagle, you said this doesn't count toward government help when it's a mental illness, did you look into CPP?

I'm presently in an excellent mind-body-spirit program for mood disorders and am seeing an excellent mood disorder specialist but we're trying to get meds right, which is such a trial & error thing. I'm just now weaning off one that made me so agitated that I could bite anything's head off and hopefully the next one will be better. The counsellors I'm seeing are great and the program is a fairly new one but so far, I'm happy with it all.

Eagle, like you, I could always express myself in the written word better than face-to-face and did take creative writing courses when I went back to college in my 40's. So, maybe there's an avenue.....who knows.

Look forward to discussing this further with ya'll. Oh, I almost forgot.....Eagle, I couldn't draw any type of social assistance if I could as my hubby sponsored me to become a landed immigrant here in Canada and part of that agreement is that he takes care of me and I don't draw assistance (social, that is).

Hugs,

Mary