Nikki, my heart is aching for you and I'm lifting you in prayer. You must feel overwhelmed, but know this feeling will not last forever. Meet it head on and try to learn as mush about your self as you can. Please do not feel ashamed. God created all of us as we are and He loves us the same.

You may want to put this post in another forum where it won't get covered immediately. Also because there are many women who have traveled a similar path who are more than happy to help.