At any given time I have at least 4 or 5 journals working. There's the prayer journal, there is the one I keep occassionally for the kids, there is the very private, my eyes only journal. I've always been very private about my writing. Part of my intimacy issue I suppose. Anyway, yesterday I began a brand new journal. It is one that I will leave out and have told my husband he is free to read it whenever he likes. During my dark times I shut down and don't pray and don't write and don't talk to anyone. I realize now that for years, my journals have been my lifeline to my sanity and to not write is just dumb.