Bluebird, I hear your weariness. My heart doesn't know what to say, but just know that I hear you. I wish I lived close enough to come over and make you a good hot cup of tea. It never solves anything, but somehow makes everything seem better just for a few brief sipping moments.

There's nothing wrong with sighing that huge sigh of weariness...no matter how much of a blessing this baby is/will be, it doesn't change the fact that you're 46, tired, been doing this for a very long time and thought you were heading in another direction...it's a shock and you do need to adjust and get used to this new reality.

Whatever you do, I hope you won't feel like you're supposed to feel happy and overjoyed about this when you're here with us...be you...be real...and let us help you through this initial shock and profound weariness. We'll help you through...