aaaah, i shouldn't have used that phrase 'there's no dues or fees for membership'... it is an important phrase within the AA program, and the next part is 'only a desire to quit drinking'... i used it, because, like those whose lifes become 'unmanagable' because of drinking, my life often becomes unmanagable, because i am a nicotine addict.. The 12 step program is a way of life, but the fellowship of others is an essential part of the program. Just as good humor and humility is also an essential part in any recovery program, so it was in jest that i said, serious drinking was looking like a viable option to smoking last night..... I could no more go into serious drinking, than i could start racing around the track, my lungs are in poor condition from smoking.....

The 'words' i was not even wanting to mention was
cigerette', 'smoke' i was trying to banish them from my vocabularly even within my own mind.

[ January 03, 2006, 12:56 AM: Message edited by: norma ]