sorry about that ladies, dying throws of my old moniter...i have borrowed L, yep not good....

anyway i thought mathow 5:3 so its all the blessed be those,...
New American Standard Bible (©1995)
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.
(who am i kidding you know ths more than I)some blessed are i love some not so much.

ovrall its a message of hope and upliftment and a positive outcome spiritualie for those that are hurt, hurting, persiquited so on...long term message of reward and more importantlie hope...i just finished looking it up when comp started moniter started dying and i was writting heer. But what the best thing for me to have just finished reading...after thinking of this girles phamflet quotasion.

This week every night i only got 3 hours sleep, L reajusting to po being gone and him starting school after easter holiday. sleepless very tired meeting a hard day dose't work well.

i had a real hard day and my 6 mouthlie pedriatic consultant appontment about L.Troublsome news and possibility of him potensialie being medicated in day time...(obviouslie not what i want nor wanted to hear) Short term we going to find some clinical psychologist to work with around certine behaviours, short term pain and work for long term reward...sound familure lol.

Just hours outa that appontment that was my situasion, and i was hurting but at lest hopefull a solution be found for stuff, non medicated wise.

the kidness from her i appriated, Inside the card was the bible study phamphlet, the quote or phras i was drawing to was based around mathew and went something like "Happy are those counsiouse of thir spirtual need" Thats the one that was ringing bells for me

I am consiouse of that spiritual need but i forgett get overwhelmed with life duties work and all. If and when i forgett my spiritual need ... i become reliant on ME and thats when the pain starts. Do you find it that way too?

reliance on god for to make a situasion better OR alter my mindset so i can cope with the situasion or put it into perspective, needs humility, also for me needs god centered consiousness, and thats what i had lost yesterday or over the whole week...so the doc news just felt like icing on cake...and what timming that on that day things co-ordinated themselfs that we meet, the events would happen and i end up reading the very thing i needed for that day.....a message from god about life and just some kidness back from another humane person.

that card, though gesture gave me both.

she risk her job giving me that as its the stuff ya get fired for within NI, nurses giving prayer cards gt taken to disiplinary triabunials....i don't know if she knows that but she must have some awareness, therfore some trust in me, that i neither react badlie to her personalie or do anything to persecute her for her christ cetered position on faith. Its a strange world when we can be hurted still when talking or passing on a message of god.

thats all i was trying to say when my moniter started paking in. Inicallie i was feeling a bit what! and why now! but why not now? how i felt was best time for monitore to brake on me becouse i was already looking past today and all thats physical to something etherik and a bit more comphorting.

monitore broke so L and i done some good relashionship building work, since i did't have him in bed sharp at bedtime. He's in bed sharp for his routine but also over last week for me to do work via computere, i needed him in bed.

we all won last night.

sory for such a long post but bad at editting and i just wanted to pass on that message...the situasion...my belife that stuff dose happen for reasons or right times....and plz rember just today if you have happend to have forgotten that spiritual need and reliance bring rich rewards.

cheers.