Greene, I don't think it matters how old the thread is. I've seen dead threads get resurrected after months of inactivity. Just my observation. It's awesome that you are at the 18 month mark. As always, I appreciate your candor. My husband has gone no longer than 2 weeks without a drink in our 20 year marriage. He drinks 2-3 glasses of wine after work, and sometimes a beer on the way home from work. I no longer police him. He knows the high stakes. He is not destructive other than to himself. I do worry that if he tried to quit on his own is there withdrawal for that amount? I do understand that one cannot be one's own higher power. But I don't like the notion of being put on the spot to determine a higher power. I've noticed on the self-help and psychology aisles of the book stores there are lots of books and workbooks to help those who want to quit an addiction.