Again, thanks for sharing your wisdom and experiences. I do recognize that my body has been traumatized by the surgery. Sleeping has always been the most effective way for my body to heal itself. I'm trying to eat and drink so that I don't get dehydrated. I've quit smoking in the process and tried to slow myself down by giving myself permission to be "lazy". I read as much as I can, keep my journal going and work on tiny projects that require little physical effort. Being lazy, naps, not working when awake have always been questionable behaviors in my growing up. This experience is a real test of which parts of the oppressive internal dialogue I have managed to discard.