Foundhervoice, I can see the stress in your posts. Here's a technique that has helped me in the past and maybe it will help you. If at all possible, imagine your fear as fuel for what you have to do.
Fear can be a good thing. It produces adrenalin which prepares us for a fight. You are fighting for your children as mothers have fought for their children since the beginning of time. There is no being on earth as fierce as a mother.

God has placed you in this position for a reason and He will not abandon you. We will be praying for you and your children.

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