Meredith,
Despite what all the philosophers and poets and songwriters (Including me) say, I really believe that people can exhaust their supply of love and that there comes a time when we must simply love ourselves first. Your husband probably loves you deeply, but won't show you the affection you need.

You seem to be finding it with or without him and I applaud you for that. And of course if he mistreats you more, you can always call Bubba.

smile