Meredith, your strength is obvious. By defeating cancer, you have conquered a terrible foe. Only love could empower you for such a horrific battle. It must be very strong in your spirit.

Now you have another battle and the love inside you can again empower you. If you look through the eyes of love at your husband's anger, maybe you can see the pain that fuels his fury. Maybe the pain is from an unconscious fear of losing you either to illness or to your creative ability or maybe it is from some ancient wound inflicted during a defenseless childhood or maybe it is physical pain that ignites his anger. There is so much pain in life and if it is turned to anger, it inflicts others and becomes stronger for its battle with peace.

Not to condone his anger, but to avoid the injuries to your spirit, maybe you can find a way to help him heal the wounds and ease the pain. I'm sure you have already tried to approach him with love and he probably struck out. Like an injured animal the instinct of pain is to strike out, even against those who try to help, but like that injured animal, he cannot heal himself and somehow the fortress of fear that surrounds his must be torn down. Maybe you can find a way to charge the walls or inspire him to allow you in.

If only all the world's wounds could be healed and all the pain eased, all the anger in the world could be calmed and peace could prevail.

Not sure what all that means. Just some thoughts.

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