Meredith, I'm sure the cold conflict of your marriage hurts you, but at the same time, I see so much warmth and happiness within you. I think inside is where happiness always resides anyway. It is our life long task to find it and free it to live in our lives. Circumstance can create temporary pleasure, but happiness comes from within. You seem to be finding it every day.

I have no solutions for your marriage. Maybe there are none. I've 'stuck marriages out' (for a while) and I've left marriages and either way difficult. All we can do is pray that you find the happiness that is there and allow it to surround you and make you strong.

smile