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#71030 - 04/27/05 05:02 PM
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Thank you ladies for your kind words and support. We are slowly returning to 'normal'. The engery level stripped from us during the last 2 months is returning too. We are actually planning on doing something social today out of the house, now that we can safely leave the house without fear of destruction. Yes, Jaw Jaw I truly feel that God had me visit the bakery that day in order for my life to be saved from the boy. Can I print off your "Don't Mess with Mom" poem, or perhaps email to friends? It's great and more of the world needs to see it. Thank you for your support. If we ever hear about him or from him, I'll send out an update. Let Go...Let God Mary
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#71033 - 04/28/05 05:39 PM
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Diane and Dotsie, Thank you for your continued prayers, we too are praying for the boy. We finally did something social yesterday, first time in 2 months. My husband want his "fix" of love from my folks so we spent the afternoon and evening with them. We are so blessed to have them here in FLA and still very active for their age. I have regained the energy that was stressed out of my life and am ready to move one now. That door has closed, another one will open. Moving on.... Mary
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#71036 - 05/25/05 06:38 PM
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Hi Mary, As someone who raised 4 kids and 4 step kids, my heart goes out to you. I know how hard it must have been on you. I did not survive it unscathed. You absolutely did the right thing. I'm glad your life is back on track now.
As a child abuse survivor, my heart also goes out to this young man. I always try to look at how he became so mean spirited. What could have happened to him to make him hate the world? I hope you don't mind, but after I read your story this morning, I wrote a poem. Not necessarily about this young man. It could be about many of the lost children of today. I hope that's OK. Here is the poem:
Bad Seed
My mother was a crack head. My father’s in a prison cell, so when I was just a little boy my life was a living hell.
My mother sold her body to pay for all her drugs, but when she couldn’t pay for them I got beat up by her thugs.
My birthdays were nothing special, and at Christmas there were no toys. I never knew what love was, like other girls and boys.
At school the children laughed at me when my clothes were dirty and torn. Some days I’d just stay home and hide and wish I’d never been born.
My childhood was a nightmare, so to survive I made the choice to fight back with an attitude, but no one really heard my voice.
So I kicked, I spit, I cursed. I lashed out with my fists. I stole from them, I laughed at them, but to them, I didn’t exist.
They said I was an unconscionable child, that I must have been a bad seed. I told them to look in the mirror to see why I agreed.
They taught me everything I knew and then they dared to say, that I’d end up in the gutter or worse, maybe I’d die someday.
So I took the next bus out of town since they rejected me. I didn’t know what the future held, only that I was free.
That was thirty years ago and when I look back I see, a little boy who only wanted a chance to simply be
a child like all the other kids with homes and a mom and dad who cared enough to love their child even when he was bad.
The only thing I was guilty of was not knowing what to do, when the ones who bring you into the world don’t know how to care for you.
I could have asked for help back then, but in my mind there was no need, when they looked into my eyes that day and said “Boy, you’re a bad seed…”
© 2005 S. M. J.
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#71038 - 05/26/05 07:39 AM
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I'll do that Dotsie. It might take more than the twenty minutes that one took! Lol!
Yes, I have read them. He is a true survivor, but there are so many others whose stories are just as awful as his, but are never heard. That's why I started writing articles on the topic of child abuse.
I also wanted to add that I hope the poem does not make anyone feel guilty. My hope is that it will help us see the story from the eyes of a child. Even an incorrigible child, or ones who seems hopeless. Then when we do, maybe we can find solutions.
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#71039 - 05/25/05 08:19 PM
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Have it!
Tending The Garden
“Bad seed” they said, but I proved them wrong. There are no bad seeds you see, only circumstances that change us all from what we were meant to be.
When left to grow without much care, a bad seed will still grow, and even can be taught to bloom in the light of love’s sweet glow.
I never saw my parents again, but I think they’d be proud of me. I went back to school and studied hard to get my high school degree.
Then I took a job and met a girl, and today she is my wife. We raised three kids and bought a home and have a pretty good life.
It took a while but finally I learned before it was too late, if you are born from a rotten fruit, it does not seal your fate.
Without nurturing and guidance all you’ll cultivate is a weed, but love can turn it into a flower, even if it’s from a bad seed.
© 2005 S. M. J.
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