This must be exhausting. Monitoring yourself constantly. But then, I'm OCD and have to monitor myself to not count everything that comes into my path so maybe it's the same thing.

I'm wondering if my ex FIL didn't suffer from other ailments along with BP. He would start imaging that aliens were trying to contact him if he got a hang up phone call. However, he recently passed away and some doctor put him on Prozac the last six months of his life and it completely changed him. Then...his children were resentful that this didn't happen years ago!