Lil, don't sell yourself short...you are far from ordinary! I've been reading your submissions and thoughts here for a year and you are an extraordinary woman. I would be proud to know you and to call you friend. I am so touched that you can share, and share so articulately, the profound thoughts you shared in this post. An ordinary woman could never do that! You are an inspiration. And yes, I think I know what delusions are and you know, maybe sometimes, delusions aren't such a bad thing. Sure there are those that make us crazy, but there are some that make us creative. I guess we just need to figure out which are which. God bless you lil!