Lillian,

I'm so glad you finally found the medications you need to lead a more realistic and productive life. We all have delusions of grandeur sometimes, but until those grand dreams happen, we live our lives and pay our bills. There's nothing ignoble about being "average" (if there is such a thing!) And sometimes the dreams happen when we least expect it; but don't happen when (can I mix a metaphor here?) we spend all our time waiting for the pot to boil. Don't lose sight of your dreams, but don't put the practical parts of life on hold while seeking/ waiting for perfection.

Everyone else has wisdom here too. Smilinize's comments are particularly beautiful and true.