Lil, I knew you were abused as a child from perhaps the very first post I read of yours back several months ago. I kept my mouth shut because I didn't know the manner in which you were dealing with things. I also keep my mouth shut because people don't always want to hear what I have to say, even when they ask (which you didn't.) In addition, other members of this forum have been giving you some excellent advice, and I know you've been in many of our prayers.

Now I need to speak. This last post of yours is the most positive thing I've read from you so far, because you're finally acknowledging the roots. This is so, so, important. Never be afraid, because the strength is inside you.