Nienna,

Bless your heart, sounds as if your having a real hard time right now. It's time for your husband to love and care about you the way...you love and care for him.
How long have you been married? Is he from the same country as you?

Like Dianne says, it takes time to earn trust, it shows through actions. It is not earned overnight.
Cheating, shows he is not worthy of the trust.
Actions.... speak louder than words.

You need to find a support group, marriage counselor, therapist...or a close friend to talk
to. Is your husband willing to go to a marriage counselor? If, not that will tell you something all of it's self.
Turn to your faith... find a church of like faith. Meet people move forward.

Have you spoken to your family? Seems like now might be a good time, for a visit home. Support and love your family provides, would provide you time to put all this into prospective.
Just don't sit there, and continue on with what you are feeling right now.

Ladies, on this forum are really helpful in their replies. Most replies are from experience and the heart.

I pray God gives you the strength and courage to move forward.

Brenda

Nienna,

I am so sorry that you are in this position right now. I can't imagine what you must be feeling, so distant from your family and friends. And then to be in a different country where values might be contrary to your upbringing. You must feel so terribly alone...

You have come to a good place, where the women are eager to help as much as they can...Is there anyone at all to whom you could talk ? Someone from your own country? And like Brenda said, someone of your own faith? Or do you feel you have "broken" too many rules? I am thinking that you could contact ANY church nearby, and they might have the rescoures to put you in touch with someone who could help. It's good to talk to us, but we can't replace a flesh and blood, face to face person. One who could actually touch you to give you courage.....

I will be thinking of you...

Searcher

Nienna, sorry to hear about what you're going through. I'm in agreement with the other ladies. I hope you'll seek out someone to talk with. Is ther a language barrier?