Well, I put the bug in her ear and she was reluctant. I jumped in and said to her it was okay to take her time and think about it. It would be better, but I will not force her to do anything she doesn't want to do.

I have never lived far away from family before. This is the first time Richard and I have been alone. We didn't expect to have Sofia gone soon either.

Aside from my aunt who lives near me, we are alone. I thought it would be horrible and lonely, but we kind of like it. I'll be honest, last Christmas, I spent that day all by myself. It was due to numerous circumstances it ended up that way. It was the first time I did that in my life. I have to admit, it was so nice and peaceful.

Another factor and I am going to post this in another thread. I am going through some tests now because I am having some medical problems. I don't want my mom to know because she would be worried. Since my dad's death, she always pleads with me to take care of myself so she will not lose me either.

Anyway, I still miss my dad very much and I wish I could hug him one more time really good.

Love and hugs,
Cathi