Hi Emily. It sounds as if you are in a very difficult place right now. I am keeping you in my heart and prayers that you will find the right therapist. It's hard when you feel so down, but it's not permanent. You will feel better, just picture yourself as you want to be and hold that in your heart. We are all here for you.

(((((HUGS)))))
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