Emjay....it can only go up from here on in, (baby steps if needed ) I am delighted for you re the cognitive therapy...it can be a wonderful time for you as you get an opportunity to 'tweak' some of the older played out patterns of thinking which may not be the healthiest for you..and a journey like that if construed as a gift(even when challenging)is amazing.

Still in my thoughts

Popea
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''Perhaps all the dragons in our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us act, just once, with beauty and courage. Perhaps everything that frightens us is, in its deepest essence, something helpless that wants our love