There is my sister's, sister in law who I have known for years and years and also has inherited her mother's mental health problem. Her daughter now has it, too. Yes, these things are inherited and as a result the daughter has decided not to have her own children.

My experience with that family leads me to say, yes do find a new therapist and whatever you don't lapse in taking your meds or neglect finding one! You have a disease, just like diabetes which you must always take care of. And don't feel sorry for youself, just manage the illness!

Keeping busy is a good proactive thing to do also.Find a project and let us know about the results!(like cooking or painting or cleaning a closet or making a collage or scapebook for a relative)