Renee, it's okay to sound off. You could use some support. Believe it or not someday you will get to the point where you do not wish "nothing but the worse in the new year" for those who were butt-heads to you. Someday you will have peace and serentity to just feel neutral towards them. But this year, you are angry, and sad, and mad that your mother died, and all the rotten relatives that made her passing even harder on you. It sounds to me that whatever you do this season, you might do something especially for you that no one else can take away. What do you like? A massage? A manicure? A visit to a chapel? or some sanctuary? Whatever it is, just for you.
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