Dian, talk about similar stories....

My #1 husband died at a young age, he is the one I would have never parted from and loved unbelievably...since I was 16.

My #2 was an alcoholic who after our divorce died from booze as well.

My #3 is a joke, should have never happened. We've been divorced since 2001. Now he's back trying to make nice BUT as you say TOO much baggage there, we pretend to get along at best.