Thanks
As much as I KNOW I have nothing to be ashamed of and as much as I KNOW that I am a survivor and as much as I KNOW that I have grown and am SO beyond all of this, it still haunts me, in the back of my mind, that I allowed this to happen.

I know the psychology - he was weak, he was sick, he was ill - I still know that "love" allowed me to stay. I know that I made a mistake in staying and I know that it will never happen again.

I also know that I will never quite get over the fact that I alowed another person to control me, to define me. I have not given up on men; I love a man right now like I have never before. But my past defines the ways that I live with my new man and as much as I pray that it is healthy, I still fear that I give too much, at some times.

Thank you for letting me feel safe here. Thank you for your support - thank you for being yourselves.
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