Hi everyone,

Thought I would post an update...and if anybody has a few extra prayers to send up - I would appreciate it.

Well, I think I am at the "anger" stage of the grief process (after 6 months, it is probably about time). I had a total meltdown 2 days ago - threw things, slammed doors, yelled at the top of my lungs "I am NOT o.k." all at the "man" who is on his way out of my life. (this is so unlike me)

He is so non-chelant (however you spell that world) about destroying our family, and walking away becuz he does not want to be married anymore. (really he just wants to screw around - and I won't let him have both). It is just mind boggeling.

I will have my own place by Nov 1st - and I know that will make a big difference in my mental state. I won't have to see him every day, and know when he doesn't come home - or when he goes out.

I am trying to pull myself out of the "depressive funk" I have found myself in this last couple of weeks...I keep reminding myself to keep my eyes up!

On a good note, I took my two precious teenagers on an "air trip" (I have wings now, ya know)...we hopped on a couple of planes last Sunday and went to Disneyland for my 41st Birthday. I so needed to do something special for myself this year. I will never forget that quick trip - I was just in tears walking into the "magic kingdom".

So anywho, that is what is new with me. I LOVE my job at the airport (though I hate being a working stiff. lol)...and as a whole, I know that my life is going to be blessed from here on out!

hugs to ya'll...

I'll try to find myself posting in another area soon!

Danita