Bluebird,
You are so right about that. In the early days, I wondered if I'd survive the sadness. After two years, I do pretty well day to day, but once in a while, it hits me really hard and I get so depressed, I just want to cry all day. I've come to the conclusion that the "old me" did die with Mel, and I've had to reinvent myself and my life without him. I'm not crazy about it, but what choice do I have? Anyway, thanks for the hugs;I need all I can get. All you gals are great! Thanks.