Suzieq, I hope your day brightens. You have emptied your heart in this post and I hope it did some good. Unfortunately there are people who will take advantage of us just because they know they can. You on the other hand came through all these experiences as cautious and mistrusting. You find it difficult to leave your home. Are you seeking any counselling for this? Do you think you could benefit?
I am adding you to my prayer list today. I pray that you find comfort and peace beyond your front door. God Bless You.
chick