Number, I agree with Dotsie's advice. When you write your feelings down, you can see the truth in black and white. The ones who are placing so many demands on you are trying to manipulate you and would like you to deny reality. By writing your story, you will be more sure of what you need to do.

I did this while going through my divorce and I can't tell you how much it helped. Whey my x would try his tactics, I would read my journal and it would strengthen me.

I pray for you to have courage and peace.

Daisygirl