Number5, the next time you speak to your husband, ask him, "And just what do you want with an old, senior citizen like me, anyhow?"
I'd be curious as to his answer.
I haven't posted much on your topic on "I don't know what to do." I am praying for God to lead you in the right direction. I know that our words may or may not change your mind. I am, however, trusting that the point of no return will hit you and when it does, there'll be no turning back. Stay close to us. Please try to be on the outside looking in(your own window at your situation)as we are. It is difficult for us to know what you are experiencing. Some of us have been there, and we fear for your safety.
Love and Hugs
chick