Daisy,
This is probably a totally unrealistic approach to your problem and I know it goes against every cell of your being, but when I have been in a similar situation, even when I definitely did not feel thankful, I forced myself to thank God for the job. I was thankful for not fitting in, the poor pay, the many conflicts, my own personality that obviously did not fit, the way I seemed to be failing, all the problems that arose, everything. And I forced myself to do it every day before I left for work.

My pastor told me to try that and somehow after just a short time it changed things. I would go to work calmer and pretty soon, I began to find things I liked in that job and when I got a better opportunity, I was actually sad to leave.

I know that makes no sense, but it might be worth a try.

smile