Dear Dotsie

You asked if I would say something with regard to panic attacks.

First of all ladies...I've read all of your posts and am humbled by the hearts of courage that live within you all.

With regard to the understanding of panic...we have to understand the nature of energy. Energy is the underlying fundamental aspect of who we are.

There are many different vibrations of energy within us. There are 12 meridiens, actually 13 if you count the energy that moves through the blood.

There are 12 chakras, which are actually areas where the electric energy that comes from the air and the electromagnetic energy which comes from the earth, and the sensory energy that we encounter, (ie a loud voice hits the solar plexus energy and upsets our digestive system, someone else's anger can do that as well) are all regulated.

Energy defines who we are...how we react to things and different levels of consciousness.
With regard to panic attacks...one aspect of their cause is the energy in the adrenals has created a monopoly on the body's systems which means that the adrenals are the holder of the truth of all of your actions.

The adrenals control the stress levels in the body. When the mind has overused pain, emotion and the past which means, the energy of the thoughts and emotions of the past have gone into a place of energy that depletes the energies of the adrenals and the spleen.

You see the spleen is the seat of the mind, and the energy of the spleen rises upward. When a panic attack appears and is often mistaken for a heart attack it is because the energy that rises upward normally becomes a filtered prospect of past light, which means that the light within you that was damaged by pain and memories has become
twisted or filtered wrongly.

This probably sounds like Greek, but we are all light beings, energetic beings existing in physical mass. When you understand the physics and quantum properties along with the elements and the energetic properties of the body, you become divorced from the past and pain...one step at a time.

The knowledge of energy and all of the ramifications with regard to it bring peace and harmony, eventually.

Panic is the extraordinary response of the energy to a past situation which means that the energy that normally flows through us and which is regulated by the chakras has become a wild force that is sometimes uncontrollable..that is why we panic.

With regard to the need for serotonin uptake meds, that is in direct relationship to the adrenals. When you take the meds and supply the serotonin to the brain in proper dosage...the adrenals can rest.

Remember ladies...I am not a doctor. I just write what I've lived.

From 1989 until 2001 I spent every waking moment working to be well, a body totally diminised of all nutrients living through willpower and anger.

Totally living in the spirit world...which means a very high vibration...that was divorced from the pain of my physical body. I studied energy and the mind...my own mind and every dark corner you could access. For one year I just stared at the floor, wouldn't take my eyes off the floor...because when I did all I saw was death.

I have lived an extraordinary life and wouldn't change it for anything. Why? Because I realized that death was a fallacy. I found that the truth of light and love are a frequency that death cannot touch...not the kind of love that worries or the pain you feel for anyone else or for oneself, because that's really fear and worry, two energies that exist on this earth...and believe it or not...many of these worries exist in a plane of consciousness...

Thoughts live in different planes of consciousness, thoughts of love live in a plane of consciousness where the speed of the vibration is extremely fast.

Thought of fear and death live in a consciousness where the speed of the vibration lives at a slower speed.

If we could all understand that we all vibrate to specific frequencies, sometimes very complex frequencies and that those frequencies can be affected by other frequencies we would have a better understanding of who we are and where our thoughts actually come from.

All of your experiences are so real and heartbreaking but with a further understanding of energy and thoughts and their connection to the mind and emotions I guarantee you that you can live happier and fuller lives. Why? Because pain lives at a frequency of energy that lives on a viberational level all by itself. Joy lives on another vibrational level of frequency.

Here's a little something to explain this. Look at colour...red, orange, yellow, green, blue, indigo and violet. The colours of the rainbow...Each colour has a vibrational frequency which means that the energy of each colour vibrates at a different speed, otherwise we wouldn't be able to see the different colours. Each colour operates in a vibration that carries different consciousness and feelings.

Remember everything is quantum, frequencies of energy that graduate in speed like a ladder. The slower frequencies of energy become mass, like our bones and our bodies.

RE PANIC ----our energy becomes distorted by trauma, mental trauma caused by events in our lives.

Why does the energy become distorted...because the mind believes that it has to have the answers...not understanding that the vibration of energy within most people's minds cannot now or ever run the show...or give us the answers we need. And so the mind panics...because it searches the files within the mind and cannot come up with an answer...I'm talking about the egoic mind which has not yet fused with the higher vibration of the the spiritual energy that exists within us.

In the spiritualized mind, the mind ceases to panic...and ladies do not judge your minds, I'm talking physics here...it's not about a hierarchy of good or bad....good thoughts or bad thoughts...its just about the speed of the mind and the consciousness that connects with a specific speed of vibration of the energy within your mind.

The spiritualized mind has touched the consciousness where pain does not live...where the energy is clear and vibrating at the level that is above fear and trauma. This is where miracles and prayer are alive and created.

The problem with the egoic mind is that it makes us think we are in a trap because it doesn not have any answers for us and it cannot have any answers for us because it lives in a vibration where the answers we need do not exist.

You see we are vibration...but we believe we are pain. If we can disassociate from the old knowledge we have that personalizes memories we can move to a higher speed of vibration, a speed of vibration that has a different consciousness. You see pain lives in one vibration, a health vibrant life lives in another vibration...Disease lives in a specific vibration.

We are controlled by the energies of thoughts and old feelings ladies...but the energy can be beat when your mind connects with the spiritualized vibration that exists within all of us.

Your light and love are the real truth ladies and they are guiding you out of some of the darkest forces that live on this earth.

You see energy governs everything and until we understand this we will think we are the pain when in fact we have just been affected by a level of energy that exists within people, experiences and events.

We are not the pain ladies, just a vibration visiting a vibration of pain...we are truly the vibration of love and light.

And Dotsie I fought with the fear you have regarding fear of death re family members...I still fight it sometimes...took me a long time to get over it....what you are fighting is an energy Dotsie an energy that is looking for a place to roost and it comes when you are tired...when your energy goes down a few notches....Another adrenal response.

Eagleheart...your depression,,,the dark days of the soul...are the precursor to finding the light within you. There is no separation from God...you are loved and well in the core of who you are....you are beautiful. Remember that what you experience is just the dark days before the dawning of light.

We all go through it ladies...half this planet is going through it. Why? Because we are all clearing out old vibrations....we are becoming more spiritualized which just means in this lifetime we all decided that we would go to the core...to the beauty where the power is.

The spiritual journey begins with a wish, with a dream, with a thought but what we don't realize is what we have to face to get there...to get to that pure inner core.

The energies of dark and light....evil and goodness, negative and positive live in the earth plane. These energies we personalize and believe that they are us...who we are inside. Ie Catholic knowledge re exorcism of evil spirits...they understood about dark energy and how it exists within a plane of energy...and how to exercise it with a spiritual force...ie energy, spiritualized energy.

It's just energy ladies...the understanding of it and how it affects us all. You can get to the point where you see the pain but don't become it and eventually it's gone for good. AND THE REASON WHY! Because you have finally moved out of the level of energy that vibrates at the specific speed where the energy of pain exists.
IT'S SPIRITUAL LAW LADIES.

I hope this helps...I have lived and experienced many energies to understand them and get well.
What I have written here is a mini primer to give you a bit of knowing with regard to energy.
However, true knowledge comes from within and all of you have that.

Whatever you want to know and are ready for will occur because of the love of God...and the reason healing seems to take so long is because we are dealing with an exquisite human body that has a radius of energy that is phenomenal...and that energy can sometimes take a long time to clear. We are dealing with many layers of consiousness within the human body.. Remember ladies we are all really light that has become physicalized..Did you know that your blood is really a crystal...that is its composition but it hasn't yet crystalized.

Crystals are conductors of light.
I'll leave you with one thought!

I AM LOVE, I AM LIGHT, I AM BEAUTY, I AM ALL THAT HAS EVER EXISTED, I AM ALWAYS , I AM WITHIN AND I AM THE HEART OF EVER EXPANDING JOY! WALK IN PEACE! THERE IS NO OTHER FORCE ON EARTH BUT THE FORCE OF LOVE...ALL ELSE IS A VIBRATION THAT DOES NOT EXIST IN THIS FORCE!

With that I give you all that there is...love, the beauty, the mystery and the understanding!

To all of you ladies who posted and I haven't mentioned may God be with you and may your light forever become joy!

With love
Leigha