Hi Chatty, I understand about leaving the comfort zone causing anxiety. I just wanted to make it clear that although I questioned if I had caused cancer within myself OR if God was punishing me, it was just a fleeting question. As an adult survivor of abuse, I keep in mind that when a family is violent or even not violent and there is divorce, the child always wonders what he/she did wrong to cause it. So wondering what I did to cause cancer was merely and ancient lingering habit of my inner child. Cancer is cancer, a part of the human condition for some. Love and Light, Lynn