Answering my own post here....

I suppose my motives have been selfish. I should not have expected anyone (unless they walk in my shoes) to understand why I did what I did.

And, unless someone like DSD was a good receiver, it's difficult for her to understand why she's getting bombarded with gifts. When,in fact, it is really for me to help me! Like, "Ok,Di. Acknowledging a pregnancy and a subsequent newborn in your presence can't be all THAT bad". See what has gone thru my brain?

Tell me I'm not crazy!