Sounds like my life, although our "darling" is 14. But I'm seriously considering a handgun (could use it for work for safety purposes) and having it on me all the time. I am terrified of knives so couldn't do that. I am beginning to react out of fear and get into survival mode. It sucks, doesn't it? Everything has to be their way all the time. When they want something, it's so extreme a response if he doesn't get it. I just want him to go away. Can't wait until he isn't here ~ it sounds so awful. But I can totally understand. Once we were lucky to have him placed for observation for four months in a facility, felt like heaven. Our story is posted in a new post that I just placed today.