Thanks, Dianne and Chatty,
I haven't forgotten my communication with the two of you, and others here, from months ago.
Yes, I was emotionally crippled for many months! It is so good to move about feeling well again. At the same time, I acknowledge to myself, at age 54, how rare it was to feel so attracted to a man! Thinking this past week that my email response to his message may have been too "generic" and just friendly, without mention of anything emotional, but I had written him several times over the summer how I was still struggling, only receiving polite unencouraging responses. Now, why this???
One thing I know for certain, I will NEVER, ever subject myself to the trauma I experienced in the aftermath of recovery from the time with this man. Maybe I'm thinking it would be different this time? I do know I would respond and behave with much more caution and discretion.
Seeker