Thanks, LUVS!
Yes, the B.O.B. would not give me ANY anxiety!!!
Initally, I think I was viewing the possession of the guitar as a link to eventual contact. Now, it is becoming a non-issue.
I think you have a valid point about confusing my sexual response for love. I had isolated myself in solitude and celibacy for three years, and never thought I could have such a response ever again! He probably diagnosed my vulnerability in that area early on !
ARI