Thanks, Dianne,
I know I'm not really well mentally, as I keep checking my emails to see if he has written, and looking at my caller ID to see if he has called. I felt really bad because my expressions of anxiety and concern about the sexual part of the relationship seemed to drive him further and further away. I even tried to remain "upbeat" about it, masking my anxiety till it overwhelmed me. In pondering all of this, I believe a good man would have responded to my concerns with reassuring comments, making me feel safe, instead of moving further away and being emotionally remote and unavailable. I am still crawling out of the emotionally humiliating abyss from all of this, but seeing a glimmer of light now, especially since I found this forum.
ARI